have you ever walked on air

Just Because I’m Lifeless

I tried www.zowy.com, since I haven’t checked for a while. expecting nothing, or some lame search site holding up the unparked domain. but what do you know. :P

ZOWY

I swear it’s new because it (c)-s 2008 as well.

although it doesn’t do much, you gotta admit it’s damn cool! and fun!

at the very least, so much cooler than. let’s see,
hmmm..

Jing.com is non-existant.

Jake.com is parked in some search site awaiting ownership :P

so is mae.com.

Sien.com doesn’t exist, which is pretty unexpected. lol :P

Chrono.com is your gateway to sites on the Internet for Chrono! wow how exciting. :P

Shilin.com - 狮林大酒店 in 黄山. which means a hotel named shilin in huang shan. :P

jieyang.com happens to be “unable to be displayed” in Chinese :P

Hean.com shows you a construction sign with Hier entsteht eine neue Internetpräsenz ! :P

both Pumba and pumbaa.com gives nothing, surprisingly. :P

catherine.com page load error :P

Lynnette.com belongs to Violinist Lynnette Thredgold.

Jason.com gives you some Associates Corporation. booorriiinnggg. :P

Karishma.com is this lame site with corporate gift ideas and a stupid layout :P

Joel.com is like this amateur random thing. The front page makes you want to shut down your browser :P

Sally.com is some conceptual Kinematic Arts. haha! :P

Joshua.com is a blog. Enough said. :P

Tegpal.com doesn’t even exist, no surprises there. :P

There’s nothing on litheng.com, butttttt, hellloooo Waxy Radio, AM 790 in Miami, Ft Lauderdale, Florida! haha. it’s still uncool because it’s not FM :P

the list can go on sooo loongg i’m starting to regret starting it. lol. but most others i tried didn’t reap interesting results as well so owh well.

:P

Remy Zero, Productivity Zero

Somebody Saveee Meee

I have finally found my white study desk lamp.

The process? Stumbled onto some Philips bulb and frantically trying each available colour in the BigW lighting section, praying after each ’screw’, finally “Cool Daylight” literally brighten up my day. just to find that bigW ran out of decent priced lamp stocks. Run to Officeworks, buy a 15 dollar cheap-looking lamp (talk about overpriced, again), go back to bigW to get try it out for the correct bulb type, there’s this screw thing or the twitch-it-in thing, pay 5 bucks (rippp offff), and, CHUG THE STUPID YELLOW HALOGEN BULB LAMP OUT OF THE WAY. did I mention yellow study lights make me depressed?

Seriously, yellow lighting isn’t even good for your eyes. The way it reflects up from your page hiding parts of the page, makes me want to rip the book off. Halogen bulbs emit killer heat (remember the time I burnt my third finger at the knuckle cuz I was stupid enough to touch it?) and there’s No such Thing as a white halogen bulb. Sheesh.

I’m pretty left behind in school work, I know I know I’m all to blame, but semester 2 just makes me feel, like uurrrggghh.

Let me give you insights on just how the uurrrggghh makes me do all sorts of unthinkable things. :)

• So i was talking to bak yesterday:

BK : exam is next Thursday
im not prepared
and there’s so much to study
:(
so stupid
now im like sick again
double drats
stupid flu la

Zo: tell you what you need
a nice long sleep where u wake up naturally without any alarms or distractions

BK: well since I got class everyday I don think i can get dat soon

and the chat continued, after which I WENT TO BED AND SLEPT FOR 15 hours. and woke up naturally. just because I didn’t have the usual 10-1 lab, and the only remaining lecture was boring most-of-the-time useless Manisha’s microecons which had recordings so there wasn’t any point getting up for it was there? haha. hahaha.

I’m not gonna hide the fact that it felt good, cuz if you know be well, sleeping is like, one of the better things i have to do. :)

story doesn’t end there.

• So I woke up to the chinese herbal soup cooking for 15 hours already in the slow cooker,

the soup packed with love from mummy, switched cooker to high thinking to boil it before eating, and Then went on to eat 2 adult serve- packs of Red Rock Deli chips, honey soy and sweet chilli flavours respectively, washed down with Teh Kotak. and took my own sweet time with the soup thru Ugly Betty season 1.

haha. hahaha.

Someone please tell me I might as well not eat to begin with. What’s the stupid point cancelling off all that nutrition man. never mind, i’m going off to my honey roasted shaved leg ham slices, (97% fat free okay, as if it matters) there’s still 2 packs left. ok. i just said i want to eat again. see what i mean.

• So thinking that i could finally finish off the few ILTs and Quizzes due friday 5pm, which is tomorrow, I switched on the laptop, which proved to be a necessary but disastrous move,

spent the last few hours on facebook (go figure), and the killer idea this time was to  create whole new itunes playlists cuz the previous ones were too jumbledly screwed up, and ta dah, that took me 5 hours? results, I am now the proud owner of “College Radio” (nostalgiaaa), “Grey Skies” (when are you gonna resume again grey’ss? oh wait I know that, 25th sept), “Rockstar“, “Two’s Company“, “Unforgetable” and et cetera.

then found that I didn’t import enough westlife (it’s supposed to be this secret childhood boyband thing but there’s no point denying cuz i know all of you do have one too :P ) songs and switched to ares. haha. hahaha.

I Hate the fact that I’m so easily distracted to procrastinate, and the fact that I’m getting fatter but I don’t care. even Karishma is going to the gym, and what do I do?

I SLEEP!

If I Can Dream

If I can dream of a warmer sun
Where hope keeps shining on everyone
Tell me why, oh why, oh why wont that sun appear.

All About Depression.com tells you:

At least one of two essential features of clinical depression must be present in order to suspect a diagnosis of major depressive disorder.

so I’m gonna let you check whichever one you like, cuz somehow, sometime, fumbling in your perfect little ideal world, you Do fit into a bit more than two. :P

Depressed mood. loss of interest or pleasure in activities. A person may simply state that he or she has been feeling sad, depressed, blue, empty, “down in the dumps,” hopeless, etc.

Feelings of Hopelessness, Helplessness .some of the most frustrating feelings that depressed individuals experience. expectations of personal dissatisfaction, failure, and a continuation of pain and difficulty– a belief that nothing will get better. self-esteem suffers.

Appetite and Weight Changes

Sleeping Problems. middleinsomnia or terminal insomnia anyone?

Feeling Agitated or Slowed Down

Decreased Energy . feeling tired and fatigued are very common symptoms for those who are clinically depressed. A person may feel quite tired even without having engaged in any physical activity.

Feeling Worthless or Guilty . may tend to think of themselves in very negative unrealistic ways. They may become preoccupied with past “failures,” personalize trivial events, or believe that minor mistakes are proof of their inadequacy. Self-loathing is common in clinical depression.

Physical Pain . Headaches, stomachaches, and back and joint pain are common physical complaints.

and let’s not get too far onto hallucinations and suicide attempts, they’re just plain dumb, if you don’t agree, get a doctor. =)

No the italics are not what fit me. haha.

I reckon being hopelessly helplessly restlessly dull while under immense academic pressure is a totally different thing. You think?

gawwwddd I’m soooo booorreeeddd and I hate schooool i can’t believe i’m writing crappy posts.

Summertime

I think about you in the summertime.

The week when I had my status changed a thousand times.

She wraps the truth inside her lies.

is craving for pancakes with whipped cream, and chilli’s.

Don’t chase me unless you’re ready to catch me.

needs lectures on assasinating physics 2.

is so guilty/depressed she’s depressed/guilty.

has to learn how to take short naps.

needs a break already.

feels like hibernating.

is sittin’ here in the sun with you on my mind.
You’re my, my summertime.

breakfast meals makes ferne a happy happy person =)

is seriously wishing she’s back there =(

talk about moooodd swinggggs huh?

and to think PMS period is still a bit the far away.

haha

hahaha.

=|

Paperweight.

You want the sunrise to go back to bed.

Although I sometimes do do practically nothing and the days pass like no one’s business, I like it a lot and no I’m not delusional.

That 4 months felt like a dream.

That life feels so unreal now.

That life I’m going back to this Saturday.

The Time of Your Life

What A World, What A Life.

1. Real Name : HuiFern Koay
2. Nick Name : (Self Given) Zowy
3. Married : Nope
4. Male/Female : Female
5. High School : Penang Chinese Girls’ High School
6. College : Taylor’s College Subang Jaya
7. Short/Long Hair : Long, short is currently not in the equation.
8. Health Freak? : Far from.
9. Height : 167cm hoping to have grown like everyone’s been saying.
10. Do  you have a crush on someone? : Not at the moment, would love to know how’d it be like though :)
11. Do you like yourself? : Obviously, but quote phooisin, always room for improvement?
12. Piercings : One on each ear
13. Righty/Lefty : Righty

FIRST’S

1. First Surgery : Hopefully the first won’t come?
2. First activity comes to mind when hanging out : Starbucks and Green tea frap, no whipped cream please
3. First person you see in the morning : One of the many people in the photo hangings on my wall.
4. First sport you joined : Guessing between Swimming or PJ sport session in school
5. First award : some model kid prize they had in Kindy? I know i know no use denying i’ve been a nerd all my life.
6. First pet : Mummy’s against pets. :P
7. First crush : yet to come.
8. First handphone : Nokia 3610

1. Eating : Red Rock Deli’s Honey Soy Chicken Potato Chips
2. Drinking : Good ol’ 100 plus
3. I’m about to : go click on my Celine Dion playlist. Thank the New Day DVD they had on board MAS.
4. Want kids : Of course. In fact, kids have to outnumber the parents, basically more than 2.
5. Want to get married : Not that I believe in the constitution but I guess I would.
6. Careers in mind: You tell me.

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

1. Lips/Eyes : Eyes
2. Hugs or Kisses : Kisses
3. Shorter/Taller : Taller
4. Romantic/Spontaneous : Spontaneously Romantic
5. Sensitive/Loud : Sensitive
6. Trouble maker/Hesitant : Hesitant, just like me.

HAVE YOU EVER

1. Kissed a stranger : Nope
2. Drank bubbles : Soap and your mouth don’t go together.
3. Lost glasses/contacts : Lost left contact once in Asia Cafe :P
4. Ran away from home : Give me ONE good reason why i’d want to. Trust me you can’t think of one.
5. Liked someone younger : Like-like? Nope.
6. Liked someone older : Yes but it died too quickly.
7. Broken someone’s heart : I’d like to answer No. Can’t be sure myself?
8. Been arrested : Clean criminal record? :P
9. Cried when someone died : Couldn’t talk during grandma’s funeral.
10. Liked a friend : I think most of the time you start off as friends. So yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

1. Yourself : Most of the time.
2. Miracles : Haven’t experienced any.
3. Heaven : Yes, as much as I believe in Hell
4. Santa Claus : Would love to :P
5. Angels : Angels to heaven as devils to hell.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

1. Is there one person you want to be with right now : I’m with everyone I want to be with as of this period of time.
2. Do you believe in god : Yes, mine. And probably yours too, as long as He teaches you to be good. (not the fact that if you kill someone and repent last minute you still go to heaven – kind; but the guiding you in life with the karma and God’s gonna punish you if you’re naughty – kind.)

I’ve got the World on a String

I’m just writing this for the sake of writing this.

Just for the sake of “pengaruh rakan sebaya, since mae is blogging, and shi is so into that factor.

:D

I don’t think I would still want to elaborate on anything I thought was worth blogging or whining about, maybe next time.

:P

oh yea we Have to take photos. lots of photos this few weeks. until we get sick of the cameras. cuz I was looking the other day and the photos of the few of us very very littleeee.

: )

this is the way I need to wake I wake to you

Open My Eyes I See Sky

Both my chemistry lecturers are bald. Both Schiesser and Wedd. Which totally reminds me about the NTU lecturer feedback video. No grass on the busy road, no hair on the clever head; anyone?

This is a chemistry course you have to know the chemistry. -Prof Wedd of Unimelb; June 08

Well then too bad I still don’t. Progress check, I’ve downloaded all the Biomols and Ecol Hist lectopia lectures, I’ve slept the weekend away, currently trying hard to screw down my biological alarm clock, and.. wait for it…. heading to the library tomorrow! About time. If you had read my previous post you’d know how much deep shit I’m wading in. :P

Oh well, whiners don’t go anywhere. Wish me luck! Even better, give me all of yours for the next 17 days or so. =)

p.s. KahJin “Norman” Cheong came and went. Explains the long pause in posting. Well i guess we all hope he’ll come in the near future. Feb anyone? =P

p.p.s. Grey’s 4th finale. non-bombastically refreshing =) poor rose, go mer! sparkle christina! :P

Making Love out of Nothing At All

And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to pain
I know all the rules and then I know how to break’em
And then I always know the name of the game

Remember the scene in Mr and Mrs Smith, where after the highway cars-minivan chase ended and Angelina was climbing back to the front seat and Brad was singing along to Making Love Out of Nothing At All? Boy did I laugh out loud. If you didn’t find it funny or didn’t catch it, too bad? =P Air Supply was just playing that’s all.

I guess everyone’s study blues are getting the better of them, no need to repeat everything you’ve heard from other people here again. It’s perfectly okay to whine, everyone does it, everyone procrastinates, maybe not as serious as I do (okay stopping the ranting), but please, please do not resort (or snap out of it) to the kiasu-ness people adapt to so extensively. And I guess you and I personally know too many people with, shall I say, that Habit.

‘Omg I’m gonna fail I didn’t study shit I didn’t finish this I didn’t touch on that’. And you end up passing, with flying colours. Right.

I guess, by the end of the day, no matter how many times and how heavy you complain, it all comes down to you, sitting down, buckling that invisible belt, and study like hell. Whichever day you choose to start, however close it is to the exam.

End of story. =)

Light Surrounding You

Cos I see the light surrounding you
So don’t be afraid of what you’re turning into

610-150 Chemistry for Biomedicine Tue 17 JUN 9:30 a.m. REB Nicholson 3 hrs
620-154 Calculus 1 Thu 19 JUN 9:30 a.m. REB Nicholson 3 hrs
650-121 Biomolecules and Cells Wed 11 JUN 9:30 a.m. REB Nicholson 3 hrs
800-175 An Ecological History of Humanity Wed 18 JUN 9:30 a.m. REB Rathdowne 3 hrs

Sooooooooooooo. I guess I made some big step in improving my wednesday morning bio lecture attendance, I’m actually here after the lecture during that bloody one hour break blogging. Hahahaha.

I think the current Melb U system (or rather the system all along) is rather different than the one in the UK, namely Imperial Coll, yes no maybe? We conclude everything semester by semester, what subjects you see above won’t be there anymore after those respective dates. And somehow you guys conclude year by year? Tak tahu really, but I do feel a bit like eheh kononnya betul you can shunt that subject out of your system after one semester. Although of course they’d give you the same bullshit saying you’re expected to still know them and the subsequent subjects would be built on these basics. Sheesh. No throwing out the currently-still-non-existent notes then.

They discontinued Cashmere Mafia. =( =( =( but I’m getting my grey’s addison episode today! Whooopeee.

Somehow, my current playlist is a bit the weird, starting with Benny and the Jets - Elton John (reminder courtesy of 27 dresses); followed by Evermore’s Light Surrounding You; some Alison Krauss; L-O-V-E Nat King Cole (haha so misplaced I know); 4 minutes to Save the World - Madonna ft Justin; Always be My Baby - David Cook; ends with Distance - Neverending White Lights (<3 grey’s <3). Losing my mind anyone thinks?