To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house
- The good ol days when we could make someone dumb dumb person (my instincts tell me it’s Sally) draw 16. Kindly do so, missy. XD -
Just a random thought: I realised if I had chosen to go to Edinburgh, I.. hmm.. obviously I can’t imagine how it would be like or what I would be doing, so never mind =)
I went to Idp earlier today, to get some kind of confirmation over one of the “Special notes” as stated in my offer letter (it finally came in) which says: Kindly note that your application for the Bachelor of Medicine & Bachelor of Surgery & Bachelor of Medical Science program will be considered in the next selection round. And LoL, the idp people namely Selina and the other guy didn’t know what it meant as well but there was the Melbourne Officer, Jane present (my nice timing hehe). So she was like you didn’t put any applications in for Medicine only Biomedicine right and I was saying yeah, -nodding-. Oh well if you are interested then you can just sit back and wait till the next selection round and see if it comes through, well you’ve got a Firm offer now there’s nothing you should worry about, so I said thanks and went.
AND THEN in the car, the light bulb was flicked on. Haha. I think, keyword: THINK, I think when I was applying back in Subang on the Idp Uni Open day or someth, I actually added my second preference as Bachelor of Medicine. And there I was thinking, they wouldn’t give some faggot who chose Biomedicine over Medicine a place so why not just add it for fun. So there you have it. It was my fault in the end. LOL.
Therefore the kaypo-ness of my pen, okay okay it was my hand, is bringing me closer and closer to a dilemma. Like I mentioned earlier like wayyy back, I didn’t Choose the course I applied for, it was sort of like an elimination process where I canceled everything I didn’t want or like and let the remaining course choose Me. So to cut to the chase, I don’t exactly know where my passion belongs in. My mum was like asking so you want to do medicine if they choose you and I gave her the how the hell should i know answer, which sounded more like I really don’t know, I seriously have no preference.
The thing now is, If they were to give me the medicine offer, hohoho, the real problem begins. I could go on with the biomedicine course and spend my final year sitting 24/7 in the lab (zzzzz) and then by the end of the day if I decide that I actually have passion in medicine then I am guaranteed entry (condition: I maintain an average of 70-75%) into the postgraduate medicine course for 4 years. That makes 3+4 years. On the other hand, I could just go straight for the MBBS course which would be 6 years. But I would be in trouble if I realise I’m not cut out to be a good medical practitioner, and boy do I still have doubts and disses. If I were to go for Biomedicine and get my degree in 3 years, there would still be a wide range of Masters for me to select. However, (there’s always a but) my mum is starting to worry about the extra years.
Check out my dad’s personal msg in the meantime. “Daughters going oversea. son finish upsr wan phone & mp3. 3rd one going to finiz pmr and god knows wat she wans. pokkai pokkai la”
I don’t know whether to say it’s cute or disturbing.
So the bottomline is sorta like I’m asking for help in making my decisions, but I myself do not know what I really want yet, and to think that I thought what Ms Megan the counsellor said last time about me being good and having interests in too many things is , uhm, shit. LoL. I guess I’ll have to take that back.
